Poems by Jennise

What happened to us?

2009-03-01T10:36:00.002-08:00

what happend to us?

back in the day we thought
bestfriends forever and
boys for never
did we ever think it would be like this?
the female race is like a continuous war
against each other
you used to be my gurl
we went from secrets to gossip,
truth to lies,smiles to fake smiles,
hugs to backstabbin'
what happend to us?
did we let our bra size get to our heads?
do we want to be like this?
then why are we?
we were so close
it's me! i'm not your enemy
sisters were we (?)
you used to be the shoulder i cried on
now you're the one that brought the tears
what happend to us?
cause i miss you..

2009-03-01T10:36:00.001-08:00

you're the one (written 9/30/05)

you're the one i talk to when one one is around
you're the one who brings me up when someone brings me down
you're the one i count on to turn my frown into a smile
you're the one i trust with the secrets i keep in denial
we are sisters in a wayt no blood test can prove
you're actually the first friend i said "i love you" to
we've endured adventures that most friendships would tear
but we stayed together cause i know anything we can bear
god changed me instantly when he put you in my life
if i had to give you up it would be my greatest sacrifice
for you i'll do anything just say the word im there
you'll know i'll be your friend forever
now im letting you know i care
so when you need me call me i know you know my #
don't leave me in the dark don't leave me here to wonder
let me be the friend that you have been for me
soon the past will be behind us soon this will all be just a dream

jennise gutierrez,Grade 10
North Central High School,IN
*dedicated to my bestfriend Nicole Punancy

2009-03-01T10:34:00.000-08:00

I Want Written:2-22-09

I don't want to just write
Anyone can do that, I want to write words
That only words can express
To create words that words can't say
I want to enlighten your mind
To create a feeling, thats full of meaning
I want the first line
To take your breath away
And when you breathe again
It will be like living anew
The breath of LIFE
I want to write to make you understand me
To paint a picture
Of who I am inside
To create the colors
Of the immagination and dreams
That collide in my mind
I want each word to be unique
Every story a totally new world
To give you hope, and help you escape
The problems of yours
Even if only for a little while
Not to dominate, but to be vital
To your life and maybeJust maybe
Encourage you to do the same.

Jennise Gutierrez

2009-03-01T10:31:00.000-08:00

Questions Written: 2-23-2009
If you knew the truth from the beginning
Would you be able to love me
If I wasn't gonna change physically
Would you still love me?
Even though I've hurt you with my lies
Could you forgive me?
Even though we're no longer together
Will we be? Eventually?
Do you still believe you found your soulmate?
In me?
Do you think I'm pretty?
If you knew how many other were after me
Would you be jealous?
Would you claim me?
How often do you think of me?
Do I ever cross your mind?
Is that good?
Do you know how much I need you?
Do you feel the same?
Do you think you can live without me?
Do you think I'm selfish?
Do you regret meeting me?
Do I still have a chance?
Can I still ask you anything and everything?
I'm terrified of your responses
But I need to know the truth
Whether it hurts me or not
I want to make things better for you
Even if that doesn't include me
Has your love for me decreased?
Or like me,
Does it grow each time we speak?
How do you truly feel about me?
THINK, before you answer
Do you still think you know me?
Do you have any questions?
I can't be the only one
Will you tell me what's on your mind?
No, I won't doubt your answers
But like I said
I need to know.

Jennise Gutierrez

2009-03-01T10:27:00.000-08:00

Time for a Change Written: 2-22-2009
My heart, mind, and I Need a change
A change from all the lames and pains
They and I have been through
Continuously, I has to start anew
With some unworthy useless dude
Heart must constantly like Humpty Dumpty
Piece itself back together again
Just to get through
Precious time and love
Unconditionally wasted
Why heart? Do you know?
Someone must cause I doesn't
Mind, do you?
I know I constantly ignore your logic
But you must know that it's not
Mind over matter yet
Mind over heart then
Heart over I to get
I over you
And back to the beginning we start
Mind tell me what to do!
What else can I do?
Is it so much to ask for a kiss
To be so much more then
Just yours and my lips touching?
For a touch that won't
Undress me just to fullfill
That false heart between your legs
Caress me, says I
Love to love me says heart
Intrigue me says mind
I'm so tired of pain
But what more can I do
I've given everything
My all
To you, and you, and yes you too
So if you the RIGHT you
Is out there
PLEASE keep looking
For me
And when we meet
Hold me,
And never let me go.

Jennise Gutierrez

2009-03-01T10:24:00.000-08:00

I Can't Write You a Poem Written 2-20-2009

No matter how hard I try
Theres not enough words
In Websters Dictionary
Or ink in my penLead in my pencil
Nor enough trees for my paper
To even come close
To telling you how much
I love you
You're amazing
It's as simple and complex as that
Like I always say:
There are no words
To describe the feeling I get when I Hear your voice
Or see your faceWhen I hear you say my name
There are also no words
To describe
How much I wish I could be even half of what you are to me
How much I hate myself for what I've done
How much I now understand your want to control time
How much I still want to be the Angel
That you once thought me to be
I can't write you a poem Aimen
Because theres no way for me to express how much I love you
Other than saying
I love you
But I tried ^_^

Jennise Gutierrez

2009-03-01T10:20:00.000-08:00

You Don't Know Me Written 9-3-2004

Why me?
You don't know me
Why must I be your enemy
What you see when you look at me
Isn't always what you get.
am like an onion No I dont not smell
But I have layers upon layers
Each as unique as the other which I may never tell
What have I done to make you point and laugh
And act as if im not thereLike I don't feel your stare
Although I say I don't care
Sometimes I feel despair
I want to yell and say something vile
But I remind myself I am not a child
I am the bigger person I exclaim!
I know one day you'll feel ashamed

Jennise Gutierrez

2009-03-01T10:18:00.000-08:00

Who? Written: 1-11-2009

He's walking across a bridge
Alone
Listening to music
I am on the opposite side, doing the same
Searching
For what?
I'm not sure I know
Waking from my thoughts,
I notice him walking past me
He catches my eye
God, how I've never seen anyone so...Sexy
I can't see his face,
But I feel this...
Pull towards him
He then notices someone looking at him
And turns to face me
I'm glad but,I can't read his face
Or even understand my own feelings
In this moment I notice a million things
How the slightest breeze makes his hair
Look like a cascading waterfall
He smiles where his face should beI'm not sure how
But it isAnd it's beautiful, contagious even
With the cutest dimples, and I realize
I want him
We meet where his eyes should be
For what seems like an eternity
I don't want to look away
I need to know his name,
So I approach himI smile and say
"Hi, I'm Jennise. Sorry for starring, may I ask your name?"
And then I awake.

It's Okay

2009-03-01T10:14:00.000-08:00

It's Okay Written: 12-17-2007

I don't regret meeting you
Cause all I can do now is accept itI don't regret loving you
Cause at the time you were exactly what I wanted
I never minded treating you like the king
That I'm sure we both know you aren't
I don't regret my family treating you like one of our own
Because yours didn't accept you
Yet abandoned youI don't regret you being my first
Cause I was gonna lose it anyways
It's ok that you treated me the way you did
I don't regret dealing with itDealing with you
Because it made me stronger So it's okI forgive you
Even though you tried to bring me and yourself down
And had tears running from my eyesIt's ok you told me you loved me yet constantly lied
I loved you
It's okay because when I meet the one for me I'll know how a real man will treat me
And you?
You'll still be playing those silly little games to which you'll eventually lose
Like you lost me
Then you'll realize I'll be the best you'll EVER have
And I?I will be with the one who already knew
But it's okay I still wish you the best and lots of happiness
And I pray for the girl you may be with now and that for her
It will be okay
But let it be known, you are my limit
Never again will I let a BOY
Come ad far as you did to destroy me
It's ok okay
Why? Because I made it,
And I am finally okay.

Jennise Gutierrez